Music Review 2.0 : what’s on my head ?

Hello everyone! Just busy with my essay (the struggle of 7th semester student). You know, lately I’ve been through a lot of many things in my life. So, when I faced with sooo freakin’ many bad day, long day or whatever you always called it. I usually listen to music that related with my life that day or that time.

­—What kind of bad day I’ve ?

Many kind of things. So many school drama I’ve been through, friends drama etc. Honestly, my life is full or drama LoL. I don’t know, I hate it but it always follows me to everywhere I go. And a couple month a go, I always feel like my heart beating so fast, my hands and foots gettin’ cold and then I felt numb also sometimes it so hard for me to breathe. It came when some drama or some thing triggered me, and that “things” made me feel so uncomfortable.

—What I feel when it comes ?

Of course I felt uncomfortable with that, when it came I can’t sleep at night. I feel like my head is full of thoughts and these have voices. So maybe you can imagine how I felt.

Actually, this time I want to share about some music that I listened when I’ve a bad day. So here we go !!!

1.    Sasha Sloan – Keep On

So, lately, I am addicted to all of Sasha Sloan’s music. Because everytime I listened it, I feel like my soul and my feelings just dance to ‘em. This songs, tell me to “You gonna be ok. Keep breathing even when you had a bad day”. Sasha tell me, how frustrated she is :

 “The walls are starting to cave in

Sometimes,

I wish I was somebody else
When my mind starts misbehaving “

Oh Gosh! You really need to listen to this song for real !!

(You can listen it here)

2. Jeremy Zucker – all the kids are depressed

So the next song is ... *drum roll* YES!! It’s Jeremy Zucker’s songs! One time I listened to it when I felt I’m not alright and it is okay not to be okay right? I love this part :

“I'm not feeling alright
Staying up 'til sunrise

And hoping shit is okay
Pretending we know things

I don't know what happened
My natural reaction is that we're scared
So I guess we're scared”

This song tell me how kids are getting scared untill they stayed up ‘till surise. Jeremy tell us that how he can’t really keep lying about his feelings.

“No I can't really keep lying
'Cause I've been scared all along”

So make sure to add this song on your playlist!

(You can listen it here)

3.      Julia Michaels ft. Selena Gomez – Anxiety

I really really love this song because it’s so f**kin relatable for me. First I love this part :

“I make all these plans with friends and hope they call and cancel

             Then I overthink about the things I'm missing

                        Now I'm wishing I was with 'em”

Yep! I always have that overthinking and hope my friends cancel all these plans we made before. For first time I thought it is just me who always that kind of thought. But the, Julia made songs about that plus with Selena!! Then this part :

“But all my friends, they don't know what it's like
They don't understand why I can't sleep through the night

I've been told that I could take something to fix it
Damn, I wish it, I wish it was that simple”

They always think that it was just simple. Like, you should’ve to close to your god, be happy and don’t be sad all time. Okaay, I hope it was that simple like what you just said to me. One time, somebody tells me to enjoy my anxiety ahahaha and I just like “okay I’ll try it, and don’t blame me if it will fuck me.” LoL.

(You can listen it here)

4.      Sabrina Carpenter – Exhale

“Can I exhale for a minute?
       Can I get this out in the open?
           Can I sit down for a second?
              Can I breathe?
                Can I exhale for a minute?
                  Can we talk it out? I don't get it
                     Can I calm down for a moment?
                        Can I breathe for just one second?”

Sabrina tells us how we need to exhale and breathe. From this song, She also tells us how she put too much on everything.

“I put too much weight on words and glances
            I, I put too much weight on situations

I, I put too much on myself
Thinking "I don't deserve what I've earned", but yeah”

Maybe sometimes we put too much on everything too right? and that made us so frustrated ? But again, it’s okay to feel like that. Just take a deep breath and saying “it’s gonna be fine. I’m gonna be okay.”

(You can listen it here)

5.      Mabel – OK (Anxiety Anthem)

This song has an EDM feelin’ and it will shake your sad soul. From this song, Mabel tells us it’s ok to have some bad day because tomorrow is another day. She tells us too that “It’s not easy. But you should know that it gets easier.”

“'Cause it's okay not to be okay
It's okay if you feel the pain
            Don't gotta wipe your tears away
            Tomorrow's another day
It's okay not to be okay
It's fine, you're allowed to break
            As long as you know, as long as you know
            Everything's gonna be okay”

(You can listen it here)

6.      Orla Gartland – Overthinking

Guess you just knew her name ?

Then you should try to do some research on her music. Because it’ll worth it!

Again this song tells us about someone who frustating because of overthinking. Sometimes I have to think that “why I’m overthinking?” even I overthinking my overthinking, did you get it ?

 “And I think my brain is breakin'

And it's just myself I've been blamin'
            It's frustratin'
I just wanna know why
And I know no good can come of it
I wish that I could just be done with it
            But I'm sinkin'
I just wanna know why I'm overthinkin'”

(You can listen it here)

So, these all six songs that what’s on my head (lately). I know and I’m sorry for all these sad songs, but I hope you enjoy it! And if you want to listen these kind of music, I made a playlist called “anxiety.” Just click here !

Thank you for read and visit my blog. Share your “what’s on my head” version on the comment section or you can DM me some recommended songs to my instagram @syafirapotter . See you on my next article!!!

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Poem #5

Hello! Long time not posted anything on my blog. I have been busy in the last couple months, but I have wrote some poems, but today I'm gonna post one of them. So in this poem, pictured how she dissapointed her as you can see from :

"Tears drop on your pillow 

Nobody know that you are mellow, and low."

then she started to hear those sounds (dark thoughts) , also these scars (dark experiences) makes her scared. Honestly, I don't know why I wrote this poem. I just wrote what I felt that day or I saw.

Oh ya make sure when you read this poem also listen to this song 
cry baby by Melanie Martinez click this for the song 
(oh you should read the lyrics too)

So here the full poem, hope you enjoy it ! 
Lots of Love Syafira.

Dumb

Tears drop on your pillow.

Nobody know that you are mellow, and low.

In the middle of night where everyone 

Are sleeping on their comfortable pillow.

You start to hear those sounds,

Annoy you and these scars

Make you feel so scared.

I’m wearing red,

And I’m too care.

For what everyone just says.

The situations just give me pressure.

Am I Depressed ?

Because I can’t even describe.

Cried in the night,

Smile in the noon.

Blue in the noon,

Dark in the night.

All I want is

just to be numb.

Or I even dumb ?

Too care for what everyone just say.

— dumb by spa.

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poems #4

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Hello!

Long time not post any poems yet.
So today I want to share my new poem to all of you.
For the first time I've made a poem about real person in my life. He is my best friend, we met at MUN event in Universitas Indonesia. Actually on that event we didn't talk or say hello to each other but after the event we finally talk about lot of things, and yep we talked much about music.
So check it out of my poem !

The Story of The Woman and Her Castle

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This is a story about the woman who got trapped inside her castle.

Everyday she just looking through the window, looking for someone to come and save her

from this flatness life.

She want to escape from her castle but sheʼs still believes that someone will come to save

her.

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But someday, her castle was attacked.

Her castle is on fire, a tattered gown, and her kingdom of ash.

So she walks alone, and never look back.

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But when she wants to escape her castle,

She still believes that someone will come to save her.

So she waiting, waiting and waiting.

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The fire getting bigger and bigger.

Sheʼs suffocating can not breathe,

And then she saw a bright light.

She walked till the end of the tunnel.

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At the of the tunnel, she met with this man.

A man called him self as The Fighter.

He was in his own war,

And he really loves doing it.

He said ”Iʼm searching for Glory..”

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For the first time The Woman feels so connected with The Fighter.

They shared a lot things.

Their dream, their problems, sometimes they shared their own poems too.

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Sometimes he got some flashes from his lives.

He remember like this is kinda of deja vu.

So He ask her “Who are you?”

The Woman smiles beautifully and telling him

“Iʼm the woman who trapped inside my own castle. And waiting someone to save me, but

here I am.”

spa.

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Music Review 1.0 : GLOOMY SONGS

It’s been a long time since the last article about Model United Nations.

So, today I just want to share with you about my favorite gloomy song. Here they are :

1.  Lana del Rey – Freak

From this song you can feel the song, and I really love the tone from this song.

2.  Billie Eilish – Bellyache

Bellyache is TOTALLY PSYCHO AND PERFECTLY POP!

“'Bellyache' is about the concept of guilt, when you do things in the moment because you feel so strongly about them. In the end you're left with the decision you made. That line—"I thought that I'd feel better, but now I gotta bellyache"—is about how you kinda know that you're the worst but you don't care. It's about a psychopath who regrets being a psychopath but doesn't really care.” Said Billie.

3. Melanie Martinez – Cry Baby

Melanie tried to share with us about this feeling “being cry baby”. If you have feeling so lonely and sometimes you cried even don’t know why, well maybe you should listen this one.

4. Logic - 1800-273-8255

This song probably the most gloomy song I’ve ever heard before!

Logic tried to tell us how important your lives for.

“ I've been on the low
I been taking my time
I feel like I'm out of my mind
It feel like my life ain't mine

I don't wanna be alive
I just wanna die today “

     5. Ellie Goulding – Vincent

Maybe you have already listened this song. Yes, this song is telling us about Vincent van Gogh.

“Now I understand
What you tried to say to me
And how you suffered for your sanity

                                    How you tried to set them free

They would not listen, they did not know how

Perhaps they'll listen now “

Listen My Playlist xx

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About Me ,

Hello!  

I’m Syafira , a 18 year-old Indonesian lady who loves all about history, monochrome things, and currently undertaking a Management at Widyatama University Bandung. I sometimes made some poems, i want to share my thoughts to everyone.

I am not the person who easily can made some friends. Actually, i’m not kind of girl who have a lot of friends. Honestly, i’m an introvert. Did you feel like you need to be alone, but wont feel lonely? Did you feel like uncomfortable infront bunch of people? Did you feel anyone think that you’re shy or ask “why you’re so quiet?” ? Or, Did you feel like you have a million thought in your head, but you can’t share it to anyone ? I guess, you can feel what i’m feeling.

Fashion is important for me. For me, fashion is important for many reasons, including being a form of personal identity. Fashion lets people express style and personality. Fashion also enables people to display personality and personal preferences. So, many people judging someone from how they look for the first time they met.

I love made poems. For me, poem is just like expressed my thoughts that i can’t shared it to anyone before. From poem, i can shared condition of my feelings, or someone experience that might useful for people.

So I hope you guys enjoy my blog .

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